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Bonjuk Bay has become a home within my musical journey. Here, on Türkiye’s coast, my work moves between the energy of an Ecstatic Dance floor and the intimacy of a voice, an instrument and a circle of people listening.

I…

Moon Goddess · composed and produced during my 2021 artistic residency at Eagle’s Nest Atitlán, Guatemala.

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Some pieces of music remain connected to the place…

Ecstatic Dance Festival Türkiye Is Born

When people search Ecstatic Dance Festival Türkiye, they are not just looking for an event.
They are searching for the roots of a movement, the people behind it, and the vision shaping Ecstatic Dance in Turkey.

Ecstatic Dance Festival Türkiye was founded as a collective response to that calling.

It emerged from a shared intention to create a festival grounded in ritual, integrity, and conscious movement, honoring both international Ecstatic Dance culture and the land of Türkiye itself.

I’m in a process—well, we’re always in a process—but I’m deeply loving this one. It’s a moment of growth and expansion like never before: I’ve never had so much music, so many ideas, or experienced so much self-discovery. Maybe I’ve never looked so deep inside, without fear of judging myself.

I feel like I need to share this process with you, so you can understand why I’ve been silent. I don’t know how it is for you, but I need a lot of space and silence.

I'm not sure if this is a gender-specific trait, but whenever something new enters my life, there's an obsession in me to understand it completely. After our music production class yesterday, I struggled with configuring the virtual cable in OBS to capture the main outputs of Ableton Live and my voice from the UAD mixer. The goal was to record a video tutorial while playing "Temple of Isis" from Ableton, rather than using the bounce.

In music, few compositions transcend the boundaries of sound to create a profound emotional journey. "Moon Goddess," has recently achieved a milestone of 42,000 plays. As we delve into the intricacies of this musical masterpiece, this blog post will not only explore the captivating depths of the dark feminine archetype but also provide an insightful analysis through emotional profiles and energy dynamics of “Moon Godedess”. Drawing upon my unique blend of musical expertise and psychological insight, we'll unravel how the emotional profile remains balanced, emotional dynamics reach a medium intensity, and energy levels fluctuate while maintaining a consistently high dynamic throughout the composition.

Have you ever wondered how certain individuals, particularly women, possess the remarkable ability to ignite one's creative spirit, leaving a lasting imprint on the canvas of artistic expression? In this personal blog post, I'll delve into my experiences as an artist, reflecting on how extraordinary women who've graced my journey have become the driving forces behind my creative endeavors and how their words have left an indelible mark on my creative soul.

It was a hot summer day in Merida Yucatan, Mexico, and I was just a young aspiring music producer with a dream in my heart and a fire in my soul. As fate would have it, that day would change my life forever.

Photo by Daiga Seiberg 

En 2021, durante la pandemia, tuve una serie de ataques de pánico estando solo en mi departamento en Condesa, Ciudad de México. Mientras vivía mi "sueño" de "rockstar", yo diría de rockstar tóxico. 

Writing is one of the best practices we can do when waking up; it allows us to scan, what is going on inside, and by coming out, we feel a sense of relief. There are so many stories going on in our lives that worth telling. Our perspectives and teachings are unique. They are like the song of life inside us waiting to be born. 

Every journey has a lesson for us. And for me, I consider every person as a journey. I feel every individual as a mirror, and I'm always listening and watching what I can learn from this new person in my life. 

This is a journey to the interior, a journey to the real me, a trip of being reflected in the other and staying calm while all your shadow self gets reflected in the surface of your thoughts. This is a journey of the unconscious, of the ego masking your weakness by playing the guru role. This is the journey of not getting any advice but listening to your intuition. This is a journey of vulnerability. Who is ready for being vulnerable? Who's ready to write the truth? Who's ready for listening to the truth? Who's ready for being itself? Who's ready for its maximum expression? 

Whenever you're ready, whenever you're ready 
Whenever you're ready, whenever you're ready 
Can we, can we surrender? 
Can we, can we surrender? 
I surrender

-Natalie Taylor

In my flow season, —in my most feminine embodiment of listening to my body and heart—, I ended at Damla's Wataflow workshop —in this new place I was discovering in Kayaköy, Turkey.

After a couple of sincere connections, a really nice girl approached me, and I could notice, a real interest in meeting me was happening. The feeling of real interest and the deep connection was surprisingly increasing a sensation of warmth in my heart and belonging. A medicine woman. 

This medicine woman, Burcu, invited me at the end of the conversation to join her in the Wataflow session that I had just signed up for upon my arrival. And just then the awareness of meeting her healing power came to me.

Being in a relationship and even going deeper as living with that person with the purpose of being honest with her and yourself bring to the surface your shadows, flaws, and inner child wounds so fast.

When I met Simay this happened from the first day and we really enjoyed this process. Even we started joking about this calling us our own "retreat". 

A shadow is easy to admit but not easy to unblock from our DNA. it requires time. Recognizing a new shadow brings me a kind of anxiety to step out of there and make a quantum jump, -as the masculine that I am, right? - when patience and time is the best ally to unblock these new gifts to the world.

It's normal when you are in a healing process to want all this to happen fast, and I think much more if you are living with your partner. 

Holding space is not as easy as it sounds. 

I published some days ago on my Instagram about these hard days holding space for my actual partner while she's not able to regulate her emotions and I observe reactions like fireworks exploding in front of me. 

I used to start writing from a title, like trying to define my way from the beginning. In the latest days, I just flow, I have surrendered to just writing and letting you know my feelings, and then maybe a…

Who doesn't want to make daddy proud? I surprised myself by sharing this on WhatsApp, this poster with my dad. I know that you don't know me, and you don't see my relationship with him. Wait, I'm feeling so much while I write this...