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It was a hot summer day in Merida Yucatan, Mexico, and I was just a young aspiring music producer with a dream in my heart and a fire in my soul. As fate would have it, that day would change my life forever.

                                                                                photo by Elif Simla Düme

Dear beautiful souls,

Relationships can be a beautiful and transformative experience, but they can also be challenging and difficult at times. When your male partner's masculine energy is triggering reactions and creating distance between you, it can feel overwhelming and confusing. However, it's important to remember that this is an opportunity for growth and healing for both of you. Here are some tips on how to find balance and communicate effectively in a challenging relationship:

Photo by Daiga Seiberg 

En 2021, durante la pandemia, tuve una serie de ataques de pánico estando solo en mi departamento en Condesa, Ciudad de México. Mientras vivía mi "sueño" de "rockstar", yo diría de rockstar tóxico. 

Writing is one of the best practices we can do when waking up; it allows us to scan, what is going on inside, and by coming out, we feel a sense of relief. There are so many stories going on in our lives that worth telling. Our perspectives and teachings are unique. They are like the song of life inside us waiting to be born. 

Every journey has a lesson for us. And for me, I consider every person as a journey. I feel every individual as a mirror, and I'm always listening and watching what I can learn from this new person in my life. 

This is a journey to the interior, a journey to the real me, a trip of being reflected in the other and staying calm while all your shadow self gets reflected in the surface of your thoughts. This is a journey of the unconscious, of the ego masking your weakness by playing the guru role. This is the journey of not getting any advice but listening to your intuition. This is a journey of vulnerability. Who is ready for being vulnerable? Who's ready to write the truth? Who's ready for listening to the truth? Who's ready for being itself? Who's ready for its maximum expression? 

I kicked off the year by recording and releasing an old track that I composed/produced during the last artist residency that I made at Eagles Nest in Guatemala, called "Moon Goddess" and 8 compositions compiled in a piano…

Whenever you're ready, whenever you're ready 
Whenever you're ready, whenever you're ready 
Can we, can we surrender? 
Can we, can we surrender? 
I surrender

-Natalie Taylor

In my flow season, —in my most feminine embodiment of listening to my body and heart—, I ended at Damla's Wataflow workshop —in this new place I was discovering in Kayaköy, Turkey.

After a couple of sincere connections, a really nice girl approached me, and I could notice, a real interest in meeting me was happening. The feeling of real interest and the deep connection was surprisingly increasing a sensation of warmth in my heart and belonging. A medicine woman. 

This medicine woman, Burcu, invited me at the end of the conversation to join her in the Wataflow session that I had just signed up for upon my arrival. And just then the awareness of meeting her healing power came to me.

Being in a relationship and even going deeper as living with that person with the purpose of being honest with her and yourself bring to the surface your shadows, flaws, and inner child wounds so fast.

When I met Simay this happened from the first day and we really enjoyed this process. Even we started joking about this calling us our own "retreat". 

A shadow is easy to admit but not easy to unblock from our DNA. it requires time. Recognizing a new shadow brings me a kind of anxiety to step out of there and make a quantum jump, -as the masculine that I am, right? - when patience and time is the best ally to unblock these new gifts to the world.

It's normal when you are in a healing process to want all this to happen fast, and I think much more if you are living with your partner. 

Holding space is not as easy as it sounds. 

I published some days ago on my Instagram about these hard days holding space for my actual partner while she's not able to regulate her emotions and I observe reactions like fireworks exploding in front of me. 

While writing this article, I hang out with Simay at Starbucks in Eskisehir, Turkey. My friend Ben Harris (well known as Yemanyo) asked me for some directions for the best places in Fethiye, Turkey. I've been hanging out here for a while, so my friends suspect that I'm the best source for recommendations. I'm not really, haha.

It's difficult for me to remember the name of places because of the language, and I'm pretty lazy to go back to my Instagram stories and make a resume.  

Beloved family from the stars, I'm happy to share that "Mystical Her", an organic Turkish instrumented track that I composed, recorded, and produced in my first days in Istanbul, Turkey, and I've been playing in ecstatic dances along with Turkey. Samples of the prayers chanted 5 times a day by the muezzin from the mosques can be heard on this track.

I used to start writing from a title, like trying to define my way from the beginning. In the latest days, I just flow, I have surrendered to just writing and letting you know my feelings, and then maybe a…

Who doesn't want to make daddy proud? I surprised myself by sharing this on WhatsApp, this poster with my dad. I know that you don't know me, and you don't see my relationship with him. Wait, I'm feeling so much while I write this... 

Photo by: @yura.melnikov

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This post intends to share with you while integrating my latest music experiences during my stay in Fethiye, Muğla, Turkey, and acting on writing my first personal blog post.